The Vista of Rebirth

What happened to you, to me, to that dream we swam in until
our arms could move no more? The drunkard of the village was
your uncle and your mother had the temper of a sailor away at sea.
I will always remember her lilting words and sometimes name,
your tempestuous crown above the bar, and the way she threw
that fucking table lamp at me. I loved her, and I loved you.
Now you are gone, you’ve left the path and your mother
is a feather on a peeling window sill. Me? I’m perforated.
You shot a hole through me when you closed your eyes and sought
the vista of rebirth. Did you have to leave me behind, my friend?
Was it enough then, that they misunderstood your lunacy and silence
when they could not taste your pain? I didn’t need goodbye.
I only need to know why. And now, I have only guesses and memories
as colored by psychedelic prisms as they are painted by grief.

© Tina Zabielski 2011-2019

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Squishy

Cellophane is tougher than me. Spider’s silk, too. My mouth may spew
and my tendons may tense but you could poke a hole right through
my shell and shatter my heart. Don’t do it. Have mercy, won’t you?
I’ve the fortitude of Venus with the melancholy rings of Saturn
and you possess the pride of Mars. Stay your slings and break
your arrows, relinquish for me the pride that comes between us.

© Tina Zabielski 2011-2019

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Abortion Barbie

Amen, and pass the collection plate! Benevolent quasi-Christian Conservatives, having achieved the takeover of Bad Taste, TX are now setting out once again on Slander Road. Their destination? Hypocrisy Hill, DC. And they will get there! Be the first to throw in YOUR 2 cents!!

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Wendy Davis is running for Governor of Texas.  A little less than a year ago she was a Representative in the Texas Senate.  She made headlines when she filibustered for almost 12 hours on the floor of the Texas Senate against Rick Perry’s draconian anti-abortion legislation.

Wendy Davis is now running against Greg Abbott, a particularly nasty Texas Republican.  The above giant sized posters showed up in California when Wendy visited Los Angeles for a fund raiser.

The posters show a near naked barbie doll only in panties, a full term fetus in her belly, a scissors and the face of Wendy Davis.  “Hollywood Welcomes Abortion Barbie – Wendy Davis”.

The Abbott campaign denies knowing anything about the posters (but of course), however the San Antonio Express-News reported that the posters were funded and commissioned by Kathryn Stuard, a conservative political donor in Texas and a big donor to the campaign…

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Death and the Road to Awe

Oppenheimer’s brilliant light cast a shadow so great
upon the mesa that the yawning maw of humanity stood
stock still in shock, in awe, in an evolutionary grimace
for days to come. Trinity, he called it. Vishnu, he said,
with his multiple arms waving
a flag, a border, a swastika, a bayonet, an atomic star.
This man who dined with Communists, tithing crumbs
from academia to Jews fleeing Hitler’s brown shirts, was he Prometheus?
This man, as brilliant as a flash of light so magnificent that it creates
its own weather, was relieved. Was he Zeus? He clasped his hands
together and bowed upon the stage of the world. Relieved.
Einstein knew. The race was vital, the prize was heinous,
success was a curse-laden salvation, a double edge sword.
Curses alive with prediction and promise. Horror, tangible
in the mushroom cloud that escorts awe. Humans reduced
to shadow in the blink of a nation’s eye. Reduced to shadow.
The Genie let loose from the bottle. This was pithos bestowed
upon Pandora. Oppenheimer, hungry puppet, dancing with devils
in the alluring light of stars. We, each of us, sleep
our eyes wide open, with the Devil yet never fail
to marvel at the beasts that spring from our desire and our need.

© Tina Zabielski 2011-2019

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Your Basket

Who sleeps in your basket, you do-gooder, you holy-roller,
you collector of praise and recompense? Who gains your heart,
who is awarded your most gentle caress? I have painted
the ones you’ve forgotten or ignored. I have used the color
of concrete for all of their faces, and detailed the vacuum
that lies behind the lids of their eyes. Unity? Love? These things
are like swimming pools and fluted glasses. These things
don’t belong to the castaways, the untouchables, the queens
and the necks that rest on train tracks. I wonder
if Ghandi had an iPhone who he would call for help to set
the world on its knees – would he call you? Would Jesus
rip his wrist away from the spike on the cross and offer
you a pat on the back? For all your trouble, for all your intents
and purposes, would Martin Luther King Jr invite you in?
It is an ego the girth of Saturn that dwells, bald faced
in your basket, and the stench of it has chased
the crown of mercy from your head. Goodnight, sweet Prince,
beautiful Princess, goodnight. Rest now, may you dream
tonight of ugly things, and may they dwell upon your lips
forever rest upon your hips and weigh upon your brow.

© Tina Zabielski 2011-2019

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Blue Upon Blue

The world may be your oyster, I am swallowed by it until

every sigh or sullen wish becomes a nebulous sign in a foreign sky.

It is in that world, blue upon blue, that light dazzles

only briefly, spent as a fallen star. It is enough to make the old women

nod their heads and the young ones bang their forks at table.

It is enough, this world the size of a marble, this speck of proof

that we bleed so much like each other, that tenderness wins

the hand, while the Joker snickers behind his ornamental fan.

And mercy swims the distance between cresting waves

and disappearing sand, long enough for you to decide

what will live and what will die.

© Tina Zabielski 2011-2019

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Click Your Heels

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Superman dressed all in red, from your tights to the sweat
on your Neanderthal brow. No thank you, I do not want your emblem
your shield sword key or lock. Take to the sky
all on your own and my feet will find the brittle footpath
and the monkeys in the trees. These vines are perfect
for swinging and raking up dust, you would only be
unwelcome here. So, please click your heels and wish
upon a neon sign, gather up the roses that scent your breath.
Leave me to conjure a tempest on the back of these skunk cabbage leaves.

© Tina Zabielski 2011-2019

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dandelion brine

Dandelion for the Brine

Dandelion for the Brine

Her confession turns your face to ash and starches up your collar

too tight it is around your small throat as she begins to holler.

It’s woody white roots tonight for you and maybe even tomorrow

it’s dandelion brine and cool turpentine, a supper for your sorrow.

© Tina Zabielski 2011-2019

 

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the cries of halfwits

The tears get pulled like rubber bands, warm in the sunshine and ready

for a plucky mind and a darting hand. Why is life so filled with the strings

of Love, the pangs of Love, the marble statues erected in the name

of those so long past the vessels in our fingers that only the Sun can remember?

Why so filled with the ropes that string up the hopes of every romantic hobo,

every passing star that scars the sky at 3am? We cry like halfwits into our glasses

and dribble our declarations as if they would last. And they do. They last.

Because the heart is a soldier and love is what every mission concludes will be

a success. It is sometimes enough

that the flow is only one way. It is the way it snaps back at you, stuns you

and fills you, flooding the corners, rounding the sharp edges, drawing

blisters on your skin, another victim of the bold face of that brazen Sun,

that hissing, stupid Moon. So in love, we are, with that too bright

boastful Moon.

© Tina Zabielski 2011-2019

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Scarecrow and the Weather Vane

The day light bleaches the ocher of stones to ghost faces, white
and mineral rich like bones, like chalk or dust, like ancient pounded salt.
The stalks grow weak and lean ever closer to their roots, soon to be joined
with soil as fine as talc, soil so barren it could never cradle a root. Clouds
like celestial mountains will not leak nor bring a deluge, they merely parade
across the sky, a spiteful mirage for the parched nomads that roam this desert.
Clouds as useless as a promise on the lips of a dead man.
As pointless as a lifetime guarantee, or a million dollar note, forgotten.
Who’s afraid of a man stuffed with straw? He could threaten action
but even the crows know that his fabric nose is only ripe
for plucking. They fear him about as much as the weather vane.
They love him as much as they fear the impotent clouds.
When the wind blows they lift their wings and croak out a cackle. And when
the scarecrow loses his knees to the sparrows, (My, what a nice nest you will make!)
the black ones lift their tails high and rattle their brains. Blow in the wind, scary man,
let the tornadoes take your hat! Let the weather vane show you
the quickest way to the Sun.

© Tina Zabielski 2011-2019

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